Today, October 15th, is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Remembrance Day. But, I remember you every day of my life. I remember the hopes and dreams I built around you the moment I found out I was pregnant with you. I looked forward to adding you to our family of three and I was bursting with nervous energy as I approached my 12 week mark.

But, we never got a chance to meet. In September of 2012, I lost you before I got a chance to feel you move and hold your hand. I lost you after hearing your heartbeat one time. And some people will deny that I ever had you, but I know you were (and will always be) mine.

And, on September 11th, we parted ways on a sunny day. I’d like to believe that a part of your spirit showed up in February 2014 when I had my second daughter. And, I will always think of you with a spirit of love.

-Mommy