Three Steps Backward ☹️

I feel like I take one step forward and three backward. Work is stressing me out and I am constantly on the edge of a verbal explosion. My patience is almost nonexistent and the headaches are back AGAIN. And, the negative thoughts are eating away at me, telling me that I’m nothing. A failure. A loser. Grrr. What am I doing wrong? What is going on?!

I’m soaking up information and learning new things in my reading and meditation adventures. But I’m having a hard time applying those principles to my daily life. I’ll go a few days and feel like I’m making progress but then I quickly get bogged down with incessant demands for my time and energy. There’s not enough me to go around. I feel alone, misunderstood, and unappreciated. My to-do list is out of control and I’ll never get ahead. I want to get in my car and drive until I reach a random destination. Then, I want to find a hotel room, curl up in a bed, and cry for hours. Right now, I just want to check out of my life for a few days and absolve myself of any responsibilities. THAT is what I want. I’d rather have a few days away than $1000 and Lord knows I could use some extra cash.

Exhaustion is a motha…

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